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08:36pm 09/12/2008
mood: calm
hey everybody...my name is lyndsay. i'm 17 years old. and i usually dont talk bout my issues but feel lately like i should. i've done alot of drugs and have been to rehab twice. i got to public school and have been in multiple abusive relationships. i've been cheated on lied to and physically/emotionally abused by many different people. i fall for people quickly which is my demise. i lead with my heart not my mind. i've cut myself over the last 4 years and have been clean from it for over a year. i have an eating disorder that i constantly battle and am woking on it.... i like meeting new people so if you ever want to message me....feel free
1 feel your pain| feelin alone
05:06pm 07/11/2007
  Hey. Name's Jerry. I'm a recovering bleeding-heart goth kid who's finally decided to get all his emo-tastic issues in order (bipolar, stepdad who smacked me around as a kid, whining melodramatically over girls) by participating in NaNoWriMo and blathering out what should hopefully be a rather interesting snippit of the life story of an ex-cokehead kickboxer kid with an overactive imagination and a sadistic gang of friends.

I don't sign on often, but I comment plenty when I do. I'm a rat-ass bastard, but I'm not too dumb. I'm 24, which makes me a dirty old man in the lj world. I don't always capitalize this thoroughly. I am wicked into: martial arts of all sorts, video games, vegan food, playing guitar, my cat, and being chivalrous to / abusive of women.

Comment for reciprocal adding, it might be fun.
1 feel your pain| feelin alone
05:41pm 30/11/2006
mood: contemplative
Hi. My name is Calli (musecalliopeia), and I am now 23 months clean of cutting!

I started cutting when I was 16. I am now 34. Prior to getting into recovery, the longest I'd been able to go without cutting was about a month and a half.

I recently opened a new self-injury recovery journal, selfinjuryanon. Please feel free to come by and check it out - anyone is welcome to join. I want this to be a safe, supportive place for people to come together and share their experiences.

I don't post about my new community to be obnoxious - I post because I'm proud of the recovery I've found, how long I've gone without hurting myself, and I want to help other people. I'm proud of the members of my new community, and the way that they are opening up to themselves, to one another, and how they are reaching for help, and reaching out to help.

See, a couple years ago, I hit bottom. Hard. And when I looked around for help, I couldn't find anything, really. There was no "self-injury [or self-mutilation or cutters, or whatever] anonymous". I talked to therapists and people who worked in the recovery community, and they didn't know of anything. So I created this community to be a safe haven for people who self-injure. There are a lot of us, and we mostly feel so very alone.

But we're not alone. We have each other, and we can help each other get through this. We all know how tough it is, and we're learning how satisfying it is to make it through.
feelin alone
This Might Interest You 
01:10am 25/04/2006

I made an LJ community as a result of my bouts of insomnia/sleeplessness.

It's for those of you who are quite active during the night, whether the reasons range from skeletons in the closet, to defying natural bodily functions for the hell of it, and want to express some thought/impression/emotion/revelation/artwork/humor/irony/etc. during that darkened time of conception.

Please check out the user info page and join if that describes you in any way.


Spread the word to your friends if it tickles your fancy.

Merci beaucoup.
feelin alone
overly intelligent, arrogant asshole 
08:21pm 28/09/2005
mood: calm
Yeah, that's me. My name's Jerry. I'm looking for fellow not-idiots who are not easily offended to bounce ideas off of. I'm an opinionated ass, have no respect for the idea of Too Much Information, and can wax whiney-goth-boy at times. I'm 22, which makes me a dirty old man by livejournal standards. I joined as a way of sorting through a lot of hellish shit from my past that's been kinda buried and festering for the past few years. I'm looking for people who are interested in open discussion about violence, sex, abuse, sadism, destruction, and other such crap. I have a short temper, a tendancy towards high-risk behavior, and I don't always capitolize, but I'm not stupid and I'm never boring. I'll help you sort through your shit if you'll help me sort through mine....
2 feel your pains| feelin alone
08:44am 21/09/2005
mood: worried
Hello. I'm new. Just introducing myself :)
feelin alone
07:09pm 09/07/2005
mood: tipsy
My name is Snow White.

I am twenty.

I have Anxiety Disorder.

I take Cipramil.

I have deep jealously problems.

I wish I could erase all my emotions- they fuck me over.
1 feel your pain| feelin alone
01:38pm 13/06/2005
  good morrow

Jerry here. New to lj and looking for some intelligent people to talk to, bounce ideas off of, etc. I would like to request only people who can resist using teeny-bopper shorthand like "u R t3h l33t r0xx0rs LoL!!!111one11!! oMFg 111one!!!!!1" I can offer thoughtful two-way conversation... I will be happy to critique literary works, and would love the same. Be aforewarned - when asked to critique I will be brutally honest. I will never flame or senselessly kiss ass. (neither the above example nor "u R t3h gay fagg omg that SUCKED so much omg lolol") I hope I have made my pet peeve clear. Also be aware that I do not intend to censor the comments of my journal. I do not consider anything too much information, and if you do, this is probably not the digest of choice for you.

Some interests include guitar, punk/ska, folk and folk rock, vocal music, literature and writing, high fantasy, make-believe, kickboxing, martial arts, video/pc gaming, and needless to say, Lewis Carrol. I have been known to be a bit shortsighted and tend towards high-risk behaviors. I can wax a bit emo/goth at times. Sorry. If you are curious, 22/m/Chicago. I say that because people ask, not because I really care to know likewise. I am not looking to meet people or find dates, but rather for people to really talk to. In my opinion, that can be accomplished online irrelevant to those three statistics.
4 feel your pains| feelin alone
02:59pm 04/05/2005

Join fixmymirror now! We are a new community for any eating disorder, and are in need of new members!
feelin alone
04:13pm 29/04/2005
mood: dirty
hello everyone...im a newbie...i cant say im depressed in any way...but my life does suck...

ive had the shittiest week...and in 4 days i have an ap exam...im sooo freakin stressed...pills arent helping either...all i can do is indulge myself in the creaminess of ice cream...mmm...


feelin alone
09:57pm 23/02/2005
  this seemed like a good community to post this in

Its for people that have been abused at some point in their life and want to talk about it and it is ED friendly.
thank you
feelin alone
01:08pm 12/02/2005
  Hello, I'm not depressed in anyway because I love Ludes!!!! WOOO!!!!


I also have a very bad absinthe hangover so I have to try to stay still. You can add me if you like, I'm sure my interests lists will fill the void that I'm creating...I'll definitely add you back, espesh-def if you like Ludes.
feelin alone
12:54am 21/01/2005
  Hi. I just joined. I'm Lex. Nice to meet everyone.

I joined because I have an emotional problem as of late. I recently took DXM and had what I guess would be considered a bad trip...and I've felt depressed ever since. Meaningless. Like a shell of a person. I thought it would go away if I waited a few days, but it hasn't so far. What can I do? I've always felt mostly happy with myself and life, but I'm just so numb right now and I hate it. I'm so worried I'm never going to live a normal life again.

Well, I guess if anyone knows how to help or wants to try, feel free to reply. Thanks for listening.

feelin alone
09:15pm 30/11/2004
  this community has become my personal project.

I feel sort of foolish being the only one writing in here so... people should join. :)
feelin alone
a song 
11:23pm 22/11/2004
mood: frustrated
I dreamt of a fever,
one that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart.
with heat to melt these frozen tears and burned with reasons
as to carry on.
into these twisted months I plunge without a light to follow
but I swear that I would follow anything
if it would just get me out of here.
and so you get six months to adapt
and then you get two more to leave town.
in the event that you do adapt, we still might not want you around.
and I fell for the promise, of a life with a purpose
but I know that that is impossible now.
and so I drink to stay warm
and to kill selected memories
because I just can't think anymore about that or about her tonight
I give myself three days to feel better
or I swear I'll drive right off a fucking cliff
because if I can't make myself feel better
then how can I expect anyone else to give a shit
and I scream for the sunlight, or a car to take me anywhere
just get me past this dead and eternal snow
because I swear that I am dying, slowly but its happening
and if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere
just take me there and lie to me and say it's going to be alright
its going to be alright, yeah you worry too much kid,
its going to be alright.
1 feel your pain| feelin alone
11:39pm 24/06/2004
  well, even though there is only one post in here I'm writing here anyway.

gah, where to start?

sometimes I sit here and wonder, why I'm sitting here and wondering.wouldnt it be easier to just STOP getting up in the morning? why DO I get up? why do I pry myself from bed every morning only to have old wounds broken open and new ones cut? why do I keep getting back up every time someone knocks me down? what do I have to prove? wouldn't it be easier just to stay down, give up, and finally get some rest?

I want some rest.

I need some rest.

because it's so fucking tiring to be sad all the time.
4 feel your pains| feelin alone
07:51pm 12/06/2004
mood: cranky
Is there anyone out there?
3 feel your pains| feelin alone